Tuesday, October 30, 2007

damn...

damn...
my right ear is ringing like crazy... like never before...
played a very very very x 100 loud gig last night... and i'm a total moron for not bringing ear plugs... i thought stuffing my ears with some tissue would help but the one i put in my right ear fell out during the gig and was totally exposed for at least 20 minutes... yikes... i really hope it'll go away... i couldn't fall asleep last night because it was so freaking loud...
it makes me wonder how those people who listen to their ipod or whatever so loud all day long can deal with this... they must experience the same pain as i have now, no...? maybe they all developed some kind of callus...?
argh... i'm an idiot... what can i say...

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

movies, movies, movies...

saw "the assassination of jesse james by the coward robert ford" and liked it... have to admit it was a bit long and thought there were some parts in the middle that felt sluggish although i don't think they could've been cut... but the ending, last 15-20 minutes of the movie is so well done, it makes up for all other parts...
first of all, it looks beautiful... the coloring and the way they used distorted corners on certain scenes helped setting the tone of the movie... although i cannot say i loved the voice of voice over... if that makes any sense... it took me a while to get used to the way characters talked because the movie was set in the 19th century south... however after a while, i was able to figure things out easier... and all the acting was pretty flawless... it's easy to forget that brad pitt actually can act since he's so famous for his look but he's definitely perfect portraying jesse james who was paranoid and had many different faces... then casey affleck whom i'd not seen so much before did an amazing job pulling out the changes in the robert ford character... he's not like his brother...! then the music, done by nick cave and warren ellis, was simple and neutral (?) that also helped the movie not to become sentimental but melancholy... don't know if that makes any sense...
then went to see "control", a movie about joy division, a punk rock group from manchester area in the late '70s... and really liked the sincerity of the movie... shot in black and white which felt perfect for the movie... and the movie doesn't mystify ian curtis and his depression but rather shows a young boy getting confused about life and love in a way we can all relate to him... that's how i felt... we all went through and/or are still going through it... and again, a great ensemble cast from samantha morton to sam riley who played the main characters to tobby kebell who played the manager of the band... it's at film forum on limited run but think it's being held over...
then went to see "eastern promises" and loved it... oh, my god, yes, i loved that movie... although there were many many scenes i had to cover my eyes but thought everything was brilliant in that movie... and so many things unsaid and unseen but you can feel... especially the emotions of the characters... viggo mortensen is again underrated as an actor but he's so fucking fantastic in this movie... wow... the way he looks, talks, touches, gazes, moves... everything...!!! and all other characters were just perfect... naomi watts as a strong willed and strongly feminine mid wife, vincent cassel as son of russian mafia who's struggling to prove himself yet torn by his identity and armin mueller-stahl as cold blooded mafia who'll do anything to save his family... and the music was so beautiful, done by the cronenberg composer howard shore... i have seen a few of cronenberg's earlier movies and found them fascinating yet cold in a way... but this movie, i almost cried at the end... not to say that's why this movie is better than others but just to say i was able to connect to the characters...
i know, i'm full of it...

Monday, October 22, 2007

ah, mexico...

spent a week in mexico... my first time and it was even better than i'd imagined... guess i didn't really expect that much since my knowledge on the country was practically zero... however what i saw and felt, especially thanks to our wonderful promoter orly beigel and her wonderful assistants, in mexico was really overwhelmingly beautiful...
the first gig was in guanajuato, small town that's seriously under developed... it pretty much felt like korea back in the '60s... not that i was around then but you know what i mean... all the small and colorful houses were packed on the hill side... tons of people selling things on the street... so many colorful fun looking vegetables and fruits i'd never seen... the town was built under and around old aqueducts from 500 years ago still looking sturdy... don't remember seeing traffic lights in the old part of town... mariachi bands dressed in beautiful uniforms marching around the town followed by tons of people singing along... felt like an idiot for not being able to say a thing in spanish...
then monterrey... the second largest city in mexico... definitely more modern and crowded... had a day off and did 3 things that i'd never done... went on driving go carts... just to let you know, i don't know how to drive... for some reason i thought it was something like bump cars in amusement parks but when i realized that i needed to know the basic driving skill, i kind of got scared... but it was too late... i already strapped myself to the car, maybe not that securely but manageable... it was a bit scary but fun... then went to play mexican bingo... yes, bingo... i really wanted to do it because i'd never done it in my life and always wondered how to play that game since i'd seen it many times in movies... however all the numbers were in spanish, obviously, so orly ended up shouting the numbers as soon as she heard the numbers... it was crazy fun... and addictive... i could see myself getting totally hooked on it unless i stopped immediately... i'm pisces, you know... we didn't really win anything but it sure was fun... it was a bit scary to see people eating, smoking and doing everything in front of bingo machines though... then went to eat roasted baby goat shoulder at this king of goat place right by the hotel... sorry if this image is grossing you out, my vegan/vegetarian friends but have to say it was really delicious... not fatty, tender and really good wrapped in soft taco... yum... probably it was the most money i spent on food there but sure was worth it... and the restaurant was filled with kitsch stuff... like stuffed two lions jumping up as if they were about to bite into each other's neck... and photos of the owner posing with many famous, i assume, females and they all looked a bit horrified by the guy... wonder if anybody sued the guy for sexual harassment... maybe they got free goat out of it... not bad...
however the highlight of the trip came on the following day... since our day off fell on monday i couldn't go to marco, contemporary museum in monterrey... so i had to go there the first thing in the morning... first of all, right outside, it had the best walk sign by cross walks... cannot explain it without sounding boring but the next time when you are near there, check it out... it's really funny... basically the guy in the sign starts to run as time runs out... and the beeps get faster and faster... i'm silly to find these things funny, i know...
the museum building itself was gorgeous... looked like just out of surrealism book, with high ceiling, things hanging from above, courtyard filled with shallow water... then i went into julio galán exhibit and my heart basically stopped for a second... it was so beautiful and touching and tragic... i'd never heard his name nor seen his works anywhere... don't think even my well informed friends really knew him... he died tragically last year at the age of 46... his paintings were about his identity, dreams, guilt, desire and soul... in a way he was very narcissistic or self obsessed which doesn't always work for me but his works were touching because it all had that innocence... lots of his paintings feature him like frida in many different settings... and many of them utilizes mixed media such as glitters, fabric, leather, plastic ornaments and so on... my favorite was this piece called "thinking of you" where the title of the exhibit came from... oh, all of his titles were so poetic too... this piece showed him sitting on a chair naked except his socks and shoes, with his head leaning back with his eyes closed... over lightly striped background and bold black scribbles on top... and the facial expression he painted was so beautiful and mournful at the same time... ah, just thinking of it makes my heart ache... really hope more people will get to see his work... they didn't even have the catalogues yet at the museum shop... somehow i found this catalogue from his new york show more than 10 years ago... looking forward to getting it in mail soon...
ah...
anyway...
then we went to mexico city where orly lives... and she was more than generous to show us around the town... we went to diego rivera's house which was connected to a house he built for frida kahlo by a bridge on the roof... and went to a great tacqueria and ate like kings (or pigs)... before that i went to palace of arts on my own and got to see many great murals done by him... unfortunately i didn't get to see so much of frida's work... however after the last concert, we went to this plaza where tons of mariachi musicians hang around to get hired and it was just magical... so many musicians dressed in that beautiful outfit with sexy trim on the side, playing their hearts out when someone hires them even for a tune or two... we heard a couple of tunes from one band and it was pretty great to hear live music right in front of you like that... then we went to orly's favorite taco place, standing only, and it was sooooo delicious... seriously if i lived there, i could eat there three times a day no problem...
the following morning when were flying back, orly took us to witch craft market and whole sale toy market... it was barely 9 in the morning yet the place was filled with many people and vibrant energy... many crazy looking fun toys for so little money... thank god i had only little money, otherwise i would have spent a lot more money... it was really fun and exciting to see the real local people doing what they do... apparently they do celebrate both halloween and the day of the dead, so everyone was gearing up for a long stretch of spooky fun...
then i came back...
wow...
it was so magical and alive there... cannot wait to go back there...

Monday, October 15, 2007

new Iooi album available for download (gee, i sound like one of those...)

well...
Iooi is ikue mori, okkyung lee, olive illy martin aka billy martin...

it's available on emusic and iTunes apparently...

emusic...

and iTunes, guess you can just type the name...

if you do download, let me know how it is... it is still weird having an album that i cannot hold in my hands... uh... oh, yes, i haven't heard it yet... do remember the gig being super fun though...

Thursday, October 04, 2007

hi, my titles are... what are yours...

had to revise my "bio" for this application... hate doing it... writing about me... trying to convince people that i'm worthy of your wahtever... argh...
i'm composer, improvisor, cellist, musician, korean, female... blah blah blah...
sick of naming things... all those titles... what do they really mean anyway... can you really squeeze in what you are in those titles...?
saw this woman on tv giving an interview last night at the airport... her titles were actress/author/activist... or something like that...
why can't we just say our names and be done with it... even that's sometimes too much, isn't it...
let others figure it out... if they really want to do it... when they meet you in person...