still tired... yikes...

hmm...
still tired... wish i could stay asleep for 12+ hours... but haven't been able to sleep for more than 5 hours for last few weeks... except a few nights of course... i think i'm doing it to myself though... for some reason, when i'm extremely tired, i have tendency to push myself even more... like last night... had 5 hours sleep the night before, still feeling sick, tired from a session... then when i got home around 9, what did i do...? spent 4 hours in front of computer working on myspace shit... why...?
hmm...
always get freaked out after i write something rather personal on blog... but then guess that's the point...?
i dunno...
tired...